Growing Up Is Hard To Do

It's true. Growing up and changing is not fun. No one likes doing it. At least not while they are doing it. But as you look back, it's fun to be able to say "Hey, I've really changed." In the moment though, it kinda sucks.

But I am reminded of a movie quote that goes something like this "Hey little brother, life's tough, get a helmet." Meaning: life is hard, deal with it. There is no way around this life. We can only go through it. And I don't know about you but I know that I want to pass through with flying colors. I want the ultimate reward, which is to be with my husband (whoever he is) and kids forever.

Whenever I get down (which those who live near me know has been recently), I remember this quote: "Dance like no one is watching, love like you'll never be hurt, sing like no one is listening, and live like it's heaven on earth." You just have to be positive and life live to the fullest. That is the only remedy to the blues. I know, take my own advice, right? I am still trying.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Remember to have gratitude for all your many blessings and don't forget to smile. You never know whose day you might brighten. :o)

Crunch Time

It's finally here. No I am not referring to Thanksgiving Break (although I am VERY excited about only two days of class this week...). No I am talking about Rivalry Week. The one week every year where fans go crazy. Wardies trash talking, neighbors pranking each other, fans getting in brawls in the stands. Aw, you gotta love the "Holy War".

I thought that if I saw a person wearing red this week I would hit them, until when I went to treatments this morning I saw a player was wearing a red shirt...that theory kind of went out the window. Not only do I love him and all his hilariousness, but lets be honest, he could hurt me with his pinky if he wanted to.

I remember last year vividly. My roommate Cheryl was a Ute Fan and we didn't really speak to each other that week except to trash talk one another. It was awesome right up until she shut me up with the win. Then she was a typical Ute fan and drug my face through it for several days. Our relationship was never really the same. Anyways, its been a long year and I would really, really, REALLY like to return the favor. Except, ya know, in a more Christ-like way. Because we Cougar Fans are much better about that. Right?...

This week is going to be crazy intense. Football still practices everyday and they are going to be going hard. Also, I have so much reading to do before the semester ends that I am starting to cry myself to sleep. Not really but the thought has crossed my mind. Why am I not doing that instead of whining about it on here, you ask yourself? Welcome to my life.

Regardless of the outcome, it is my final game working at L.E.S. and I am so excited/ sad. I want the win. I want it for all the seniors, (which I include myself in that group, thank you very much) I want it for the coaches, I want it for all the TRUE fans who have stuck it out all season long and not wavered and most importantly, I want it for the Utes. Because I hear that along with mashed potatoes and turkey, a nice big slice of Humble Pie goes quite nicely. :o)

Rivalry week: bring it on! :o)

This one's for you

Ever had something that you really needed to say but didn't know how to, or better yet, didn't think it would go over really well? That is where I am at right now. However, through a few long conversations with a great friend (you know who you are, yes you) I have come to the amazing and frightening conclusion that you never really know what to say or how to say it. And it doesn't really matter. The important part is saying it.

So, this one's for you.

Betty Crocker

I am baking for the second time in two days. I feel like freakin Betty Crocker! I hope the boys appreciate all my efforts. But judging by yesterday's comments, they just care about getting feed, not how much time I spend making them food. Whatever. I love them and making them happy so the small sacrafice is worth it.

In other news, I finally finished the CATS clothing order!!! If anyone is in need of cheap BYU clothing, let me know by next tuesday night. That is when the money is due. It has been my baby for the past two months and has been a beast of a project but is finally done and I just emailed it out to the students. One less thing to worry about. Yipee!

As Christmas gets closer, anticipation heigthens. Although I want it to come, I am scared. But for now, I'll just focus on Thanksgiving, because I need that more than Christmas. Plus, it only 5 school days away. :o)

A Traveling Commentary

Just got home from Albuquerque. It was a fun trip and I really enjoyed myself. A football game, four girls student trainers and a team full of boys = a lot of giggling, some almost tears and some yelling. Others may not share my opinion but I loved the trip and learned a lot. I got to talk with some of the team doctors about some injuries and just about sports medicine in general. It was a great experience for me.

The hotel was not the Ritz but then again, Albuquerque is not Vegas either. Also, who prayed for rain and the cold? I thought the desert was dry and hot??? Guess I was wrong... If I had wanted that, I would have just stayed in Provo! :o) At least here it snowed.

Anyways, it is good to be home. I am always tired but satisfied after traveling. I am exhausted, but its a good exhausted. The kind where you feel good about yourself because you know you gave 110% and left it all out on the field. I can't speak for the rest of the team but I know that I worked my butt off today.

Although there are some on the team today that I know gave it everything they had. Like my D-line. I am so proud of you guys! :o) Way to get 1.5 sacks, Jan!

Well I am going to bed now. Wake me up when its time for class on Monday. Just kidding. I'll be at treatments at 10... Here's hoping I sleep better than in the hotel.

Fun Sucker

Midterms. The ultimate fun sucker.

So I am traveling this week. The University of New Mexico is the next on our hit list and all I really want to do is think about that and get ready to go but I can't because I have a HUGE midterm in English to study for. Do I want to? No. Have I been? Not as much as I should but a lot more than normal. Ah, the joys of being a Senior. :o)

Also, I want you. And I am kind of sick of waiting. But your worth it, hence me waiting some more. Just wanted to get that off my chest. I feel lots better now, thanks.

Stay tuned for the next installment which will probably come after the road trip unless I just can't stand studying anymore. Now I have to go read about Joan of Arc and Muslims and Sir Gawain. Yippee.

Random Thoughts

So I should definitely be asleep right now but my mind is wandering and kind of all over the place so here is where I turn with my random thoughts. They are as follows:

1. I have SO much to do this week before traveling. Also, I have no real desire to do any of it. Can we just fast forward through my mid terms and move straight on to the part were I get to be with the guys for a few days? Please?

2. Today's game was awesome and I loved Coach's comments at halftime. There were no questions going into this game. We knew exactly what would happen and it did. Weird. 52-0, baby. Plus 3 sacks for my D-line. Not bad at all. :o)

3. The results are in and...it's a boy!!! Come late March sometime I will be an aunt again to a little boy. Super excited!

4. Why is it that all the songs I listen to must make me think of him? Why? I do that enough on my own! I guess I need to stop listening to the radio. Yeah...right.

5. I hate the dating game. I think it is stupid. I refuse to play.

There are many more random thoughts but that is all for now because I can finally sleep. Goodnight!

So blessed

This weekend was one of those times were I was reminded how blessed I really am and that I am not doing this alone. I love my internship with the football team. It honestly is one of the best things I have ever done. I am learning a lot and getting so excited to run my own training room. It has been a great experience. Of course it has been hard and some days I come home and wonder why I am putting myself through this but other days I don't want to leave because I love it so much.

But I have been stressing recently about what to do come February and I am certified. Do I want to move away to another state and work in a high school? Do I want to find a small D II college and get a teacher's certificate while working as an ATC? Do I just want to work in a clinic for awhile until I figure it all out? Anyways, I have been thinking about it a lot and praying about it. Sunday I realized that I don't need to anymore. I just have to get to Christmas. I just need to graduate first. That is step one. Then, it doesn't really matter what happens next because I know it will be what the Lord wants. I will go where he wants me to go, regardless of if there is an NFL team there or not. :o) I will just be sad about it for awhile.

Another thing that I am blessed with is an amazing family who I know is always there for me. They love me unconditionally and they support me in everything I do. My parents have been great about helping me pay for school. They have been my biggest cheerleaders and I owe everything to them. My brothers are huge goofballs and they always know exactly what to say when I need someone to talk to. My sister and I have not always gotten along but I still love her and all of her craziness.

In the end, I don't deserve half of what I have and so I am trying to not take anything for granted. Count your blessings people because you are so blessed!