March is quickly on its way out and April will be here tomorrow. Crazy! Where did all the time go?? It really feels like yesterday that I stopped going to classes but it's been three months...Wow!
Anyways, I know everyone probably thinks I have died but it's not true, I have just been busy. Very, very busy.
You know the feeling where it feels like someone took the top off your world, turned it upside down and then put it back on? That's about how I feel right now. I'm a little shaken but still moving forward because I don't like the other options. lol.
A lot has happened the past few weeks and frankly, I am ready for March to end. Bring on a new month. Hopefully this one will be kinder to me. I need General Conference and then at the end, there is graduation and the wedding. Let's put off May though because I don't want Greg and Jenny to move away. I am going to miss them like crazy, as well as their adorable little kids!
Change. It's a funny little thing. I don't like it but I have been told that I need to start liking it so that is my new project for awhile. In the meantime, I will keep eating my double fudge brownie ice cream and wishing things could always stay the same.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Excitements And Disappointments
This week I helped out with the kids while Jen got some much needed rest and Greg had to go back to school. Lindsay is absolutely adorable but kind of struggling with the whole adjustment. Going from having mommy and daddy all to yourself to having to share them with this little person that sleeps and cries is a big deal for an almost two-year old. Poor thing. But we had some good times. Her favorite phrase now is "Ang...Nice!" She says this whenever she wants me to do something for her that I already said no to. It is her baby talk for "Ang, be nice!" I love that little girl.
And then there is little Ryan. Holding him is like holding a little piece of heaven. He is so small and he always looks so peaceful. He likes to sleep on my chest. We are cuddle buddies. Is it sad that the only action I get is from my week and a half old nephew?? Yes...Well anyways, he smiled at me in his sleep the other day. They say its just a reflex but he knew exactly what was going on. He just loves his "Aunt Ang". :)
Wednesday night was the big football banquet. SO much fun. I loved seeing all the guys again but it was sad because I knew that was probably the last time I would see most of them. I took a friend from my ward, his name is Brent. The fire alarm went off in the middle of dinner. That was pretty funny. Saw Jan again too. That is always fun. Do I have regrets? Nope. I am pretty content with how football season finished. Sad, huh? Football season is now 100% over. Sigh. Now on to bigger and better things. Here is a picture of Brent and I.
Now, the disappointment was in reference to BYU choking in the MWC tournament against who else? UNLV. I really hate those guys. I hate even more the fact that we can't play somewhere neutral to give everyone a fair chance. Call me crazy, whine-y, whatever, but you all know I am right.
So my life as of right now? Pretty great! Do I have a job for fall? Nope. Do I have a boyfriend? Ha! Thanks for asking. Do I care? Not really. I am just happy being me for now. And I fully intend to be the best me there can be! :o)
And then there is little Ryan. Holding him is like holding a little piece of heaven. He is so small and he always looks so peaceful. He likes to sleep on my chest. We are cuddle buddies. Is it sad that the only action I get is from my week and a half old nephew?? Yes...Well anyways, he smiled at me in his sleep the other day. They say its just a reflex but he knew exactly what was going on. He just loves his "Aunt Ang". :)
Wednesday night was the big football banquet. SO much fun. I loved seeing all the guys again but it was sad because I knew that was probably the last time I would see most of them. I took a friend from my ward, his name is Brent. The fire alarm went off in the middle of dinner. That was pretty funny. Saw Jan again too. That is always fun. Do I have regrets? Nope. I am pretty content with how football season finished. Sad, huh? Football season is now 100% over. Sigh. Now on to bigger and better things. Here is a picture of Brent and I.
Now, the disappointment was in reference to BYU choking in the MWC tournament against who else? UNLV. I really hate those guys. I hate even more the fact that we can't play somewhere neutral to give everyone a fair chance. Call me crazy, whine-y, whatever, but you all know I am right.
So my life as of right now? Pretty great! Do I have a job for fall? Nope. Do I have a boyfriend? Ha! Thanks for asking. Do I care? Not really. I am just happy being me for now. And I fully intend to be the best me there can be! :o)
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Baby Ryan's Arrival!!
Yup, it's true - I am an aunt x2! :) Baby Ryan Gregory Lee was born Wednesday morning about 10:00. He is absolutely adorable and he already fits right into our incredibly crazy family.
The family went out to dinner on Saturday to celebrate Grandma Vickers' 76th Birthday. We, of course, went to Red Lobster because Grandma loves seafood. I, however, cannot stand it. I ate a Caesar salad. Anyways, it was fun to all go out together as one big huge family. There were of course people missing but those who were in town went and it was fun. Grandma was warranted a day pass from the Hospital because she is still in therapy at UVRMC. She is one strong lady and I love her lots.
It was interesting to see Grandma hold Ryan for the first time. I didn't think that day would come. It was very special to see this precious little baby that has just come from our Heavenly Father being held by a sweet, fragile lady who is getting ready to return to Him. I can't even describe the emotions.
I have been riding an intense emotional roller coaster the past few months and I don't really see any signs of it stopping so I can get off either. I just pray that for all the loop-de-loops and drop offs, there are equal amounts of steep inclines to look forward to. Mostly I just keep praying. And I know they are heard.
The family went out to dinner on Saturday to celebrate Grandma Vickers' 76th Birthday. We, of course, went to Red Lobster because Grandma loves seafood. I, however, cannot stand it. I ate a Caesar salad. Anyways, it was fun to all go out together as one big huge family. There were of course people missing but those who were in town went and it was fun. Grandma was warranted a day pass from the Hospital because she is still in therapy at UVRMC. She is one strong lady and I love her lots.
It was interesting to see Grandma hold Ryan for the first time. I didn't think that day would come. It was very special to see this precious little baby that has just come from our Heavenly Father being held by a sweet, fragile lady who is getting ready to return to Him. I can't even describe the emotions.
I have been riding an intense emotional roller coaster the past few months and I don't really see any signs of it stopping so I can get off either. I just pray that for all the loop-de-loops and drop offs, there are equal amounts of steep inclines to look forward to. Mostly I just keep praying. And I know they are heard.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Letting Go
Lately I have been trying to run my own life. I guess I thought that along with graduating and certifying I should be in charge of myself. That was going fine for awhile but recently it has stopped working so well. I am trying to find a job for the fall, figure where I am supposed to live and just generally what I am supposed to do with my life and doing it all on my own is not the smartest idea I ever had.
Today it all came to a head and it felt like I ran head first into a brick wall.
The Lord said in the scriptures that he would have a humble people and if they wouldn't humble themselves that He would compel them to be humble. Well, today I was compelled. It felt great too. No, seriously it felt amazing to knew that my Heavenly Father cares so much for me and that He is right there, just waiting for me to ask for His help. He loves me so much and just wants me to be happy. I have always known this but I just needed a reminder.
So once I realized that I could no longer keep pretending that I knew what was best for me, I threw my hands up and let go. Sometimes all it takes is a good cry and a long talk with someone who sees the bigger picture and you feel so much better.
My problems are not magically solved, nor do I see an easy resolution to them but I have a much brighter outlook on life now and I know that things will all work out. I just need to learn when to turn off my flashlight and take that first blind step before I can turn on the big light in the room. I know, cheesy metaphor but it works, ok?
Also, laugh more. There isn't enough laughter in the world and it really is the best medicine. :o)
Today it all came to a head and it felt like I ran head first into a brick wall.
The Lord said in the scriptures that he would have a humble people and if they wouldn't humble themselves that He would compel them to be humble. Well, today I was compelled. It felt great too. No, seriously it felt amazing to knew that my Heavenly Father cares so much for me and that He is right there, just waiting for me to ask for His help. He loves me so much and just wants me to be happy. I have always known this but I just needed a reminder.
So once I realized that I could no longer keep pretending that I knew what was best for me, I threw my hands up and let go. Sometimes all it takes is a good cry and a long talk with someone who sees the bigger picture and you feel so much better.
My problems are not magically solved, nor do I see an easy resolution to them but I have a much brighter outlook on life now and I know that things will all work out. I just need to learn when to turn off my flashlight and take that first blind step before I can turn on the big light in the room. I know, cheesy metaphor but it works, ok?
Also, laugh more. There isn't enough laughter in the world and it really is the best medicine. :o)
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