ARGH!

That pretty much sums up my mood right now. I am frustrated. I can't put it any other way than that. Why, you ask? Because. Boys. Are. Dumb. (Ok, it's my blog and I can make ridiculous blanket statements if I want to...) Also, warning there will probably be whining in this and many blogs to come. Just saying. If you don't like it, don't read my blog. :)

So first of all, boys are probably the least observant people on the planet. Seriously, they don't see anything. I had a conversation with some people on Sunday about this. It's very frustrating when you are flirting and you feel like you are dropping HUGE hints but he doesn't get them. Any of them. Nope, none. You guys are KILLING me here on this one. Seriously!

Problem two, why is it that when you feel like you are flirting and a relationship could be brewing, he starts bringing up other girls and starts hitting on other people right in front of you. You know why? Because you got SCREWED!!! You were labeled with the awful "friend" card. I hate that card. I get labeled with it every time.

Those are two really frustrating things that have been bothering me lately. I will not go into more detail other than to say that my life repeats itself a lot and these two things are usually involved. I dislike it (hence the anger).

On the other hand, when you happen to stumble across a guy who does not immediately place you in the friend category and who catches on to your hints, well... :)

The Awesome Power Of Prayer

I was just thinking how amazing prayer really is. I know that when we pray, we are heard and answers are provided. Prayer is an awesome blessing bestowed upon by a loving Heavenly Father.

I have come to realize the awesome power of prayer so much more since living here in OK. I am on my own now and I have learned to rely on my Savior so much more. I pray a lot more too. Even the little things that I ask for, He hears me and answers me.

Today we are having a family prayer for my cousin. He is having a hard time and he needs our prayers. We live all over the country right now but because our prayers are united, they are powerful.

So...did you think to pray? :)

Ow. I Hurt.

I decided that since I had a free Saturday (I know, weird right?!) I would go play soccer with a bunch of kids from church. So I did. I drove to the OU health sciences campus in OKC, got lost for about 15 minutes then finally stumbled upon the soccer field. There were tons of people there which made it a lot of fun. I played for about an hour and a half and then I had no more energy so I left.

I am really bad. To be fair, its been seven years since I played organized soccer. I have played pick up games since then, of course but nothing structured or regular. I am REALLY out of shape now and I have lost my soccer legs. Some of it came back quickly, like riding a bike. Some of it may be gone forever...

I started off playing midfield and was sucking wind hardcore so I moved back really quickly to defense. I did pretty well there for most of the game. I did get beat a couple times and I have a sprained ankle to prove it (thank you wet grass). However, I also had some pretty sweat plays too. I even took a shot (it was not very good and obviously didn't go in but was a shot nonetheless)!

When I got home, I immediately went to my swimming pool and cooled down. Awesome. Now I am lounging on my bed because my body feels like jello. It is a great feeling though. Hope I get to play again soon! :)

Blah Blah Blah

And no, I don't mean Ke$ha.

Buckle up folks, there is about to be some serious whinning going on up in here.

Yeah, I know that its been a while since I have updated. Mostly because I have like no time. I still love you guys. I just, you know, love sleeping more. I am SO busy. And I kinda love it. I really do. I love getting up at a reasonable hour (like not before 7...) and strolling into work at 9. I work with athletes all day long. Rehab, treatments, practice, insurance, paperwork. I am a legit real life athletic trainer. And I LOVE it! :) Seriously, there are parts of my day when I just have a big smile on my face because I am so happy.

And then there is the drama. Oh man there is drama. And it stresses me out. It just wipes that smile straight off my face. Those days I come home and cry and wonder what I got myself into. But then I remember the good parts and it makes it all better.

And there is always the best part of my day. Around the same time everyday, I see someone who never fails to brighten up my day. Hey, it's the little things right? I guess I will never change...

I really miss my family and I especially miss my grandma. I still can't believe she is gone. But I will be in Florida with my family before I know it and that is what is keeping me going each day. And school is just a thing a do once a week. It's just an afterthought. Athletic training is really what its all about.

Anyways, love you all and I really am still alive, just barely. :)