At The Beginning

Just like the song goes, "No one told me I was going to find you. Unexpected what you did to my heart..."

Throughout my short lifetime there have been many ups and downs in the dating department. But those experiences have thought me important lessons about myself and the world around me. Dating and looking for love is messy. It's hard. But I hear it's worth it.

I have spent some time with Jeff and Brittney this week because she had surgery on Tuesday so I have been going over to check on her and keep her company. They are knee deep in wedding plans and they are SO happy! I want what they have. I know its out there somewhere, just waiting for me.

I also spent time with Jenny and Lindsay this week. I am a family girl, what can I say? Seeing Jen be such a cute, very pregnant mommy and take care of Lindsay makes me want that too! When am I gonna get to have kids?? Yes, whinning has returned. Sorry. It still rears its ugly head every now and again...

Anyways, I am at the beginning of my life. The brink of my adulthood if you will. I will be 22 in a few short months which is crazy! It seems like last year I was turning 14 and going to stake dances. Where did my teenage years go? But regardless, my life lies in front of me and now is when I decide who I am, what I will be (check as of Monday - ATC!) and where I am going. Hopefully I choose well!

And The Winner Is...

...ME!!! I PASSED!!!! You are reading the blog of Angela Lee, ATC. That's Right!

It's All Good In The Hood

Posts back to back two days in a row?? Yes, I am feeling well. (The sinus infection is clearing up quite nicely!)I just wanted to share a little something from work today.

Today I got to clean up a broken nose complete with a cut requiring stitches! So that brings the total of injuries I have seen to a torn ACL, meniscus, dislocated shoulder, broken nose, broken wrist, broken patella, about a million sprained ankles and two sprained thumbs. Oh and a whole bunch of nose bleeds. Yeah, my job is AWESOME!!! :)

Just one of those days when life is all good and everything looks brighter. I hope this doesn't mean something bad is about to happen...Anyways, keep your fingers crossed that I find out about my test today!

Control

There are times in life when I realize more and more just how out of control I am of my own life. I mean, sure there are things that I have total power over like whether or not I will go to the gym tomorrow and what tv shows I want to watch on any given day but on a grander scale, I am pretty much powerless when it comes to my life. For instance, as much as I want to I can't make my grandmother better. I can't heal her. I went to school for three and half years to get a piece of paper that says I am competent in medicine and yet, I can do nothing to fix her. I just have to sit back and watch her slide further and further away. I wish I could push her one way or the other. I hate watching her be in this limbo. She is miserable and it is awful for all of the rest of us. I know there is a lesson here for me to learn but my heart hurts too much to look for it.

And then there is boy. Boy do I wish I could have control over him. All I want is a chance but again I have no control. I have been burned too many times for me to put myself out there again so this time, he has to work for it and he won't. What does this tell me? I don't know. Again a lesson for me to find but this time I just don't want to see it. I want to be happy and have fun and laugh. Where is the man who will love me and give me that life? I am so past playing games.

And lastly, control over the job hunt. I have learned the last two weeks that there are more important things going on in my life right now than my stupid test. That is why things kept happening right before I took. Family means everything to me and I would do anything for them. I know now why I graduated early. I have grown up so much lately and it has been an interesting experience. Life is definitely not the same as it was a few months ago. In a few short months I could be living in a different state on my own with a totally new job. Scary. However, again I have no control. It is in the Lord's hands. Wherever He calls, I will go. But I know that whatever happens with any of these things is meant to be so I try not to worry about it. Try being the key word because I would be lying if I said I didn't worry. I know I will be fine as long as I have faith. And I do. :o)

Updates

Why hello again! I know I keep taking these long breaks but I am busy and I forget to update you. I will try to do better. Anyways, this is my updating blog to catch everyone up on my life currently so it will come hard and fast so try to stay with me.

First, no I have not heard anything about my test yet. I am hoping and praying I get results soon. I am very anxious to know how I did. Keep your fingers, eyes and toes crossed for me! :o)

Next, I would like to take this opportunity to point out that I was correct. Brittney has an unhappy triad (ACL, MCL and meniscus) which I had a feeling about. I definitely knew it wasn't a subluxed patella but what do I know? Apparently, a lot more than the stupid Insta-care doctor. I feel really bad for her but it feels good to be vindicated. And at least on here I can say I told you so without feeling bad...

My family is struggling with health right now. First Brittney and now my Grandma is back in the hospital. They think she has myocarditis which is inflammation of the heart, due to a bacterial infection. Not pleasant. She hates the hospital because she is in it so much and because everytime she goes, she gets a little worse.

I am also sick right now. I think it is just an upper respiratory infection or something but all I really want to be able to do is breath. I am up this late, even though I have to get up at 5:30 tomorrow because I can't sleep (largely because of the whole non-breathing thing!) I hate being sick!!!

And finally, there is a guy that I could like but he is too busy asking out all the wrong girls and getting rejected to realize that I am right here, waiting. Boys are not observant at all. But guess what? I am whining again! You know what that means?? I have moved on! I didn't think it would happen so quickly but here I am. Yay me!

How was that for an update? More soon!

....Er, Now What?

So the test is over. Thank goodness!! I feel good about it, but it was the kind of test where you never really know how you do until you get your scores. We'll see in a few weeks!

Anyways, now that I am not studying every spare minute, what do I do to occupy my time?? I mean, I am still coming up to my parents house everyday (I am here right now!) but I can only spend so long up here helping out. I think I need a hobby. Any ideas?

On a random side note, I watched Dear John on Saturday with Lizzy after my test and although it was fantastic (come on, it has Channing in it...) the ending was crappy!! I was left unfulfilled. Next time, I would like to see a lot more resolution and a lot less cliffhanger. I hate those kind of movies. All in all, I would totally go see it again, and fully intend to with Stacy!

So I guess to answer my own question, I am going to catch up with friends who I literally have not seen in a month or more, spend time catching up on sleep and just kick back and finally enjoy being graduated. Results may not be in yet but for right now, ignorance is definitely bliss!